forgiveness

I Want To Hate Chrissy Teigen -But I Can’t

I Want To Hate Chrissy Teigen -But I Can’t

Dealing with pregnancy announcements is hard especially if you are struggling with infertility.

Like most IVF warriors, in the beginning of my IVF journey, I got triggered by pregnant women in my condo, hearing pregnancy news, and seeing babies in the prams in the park. That was like 5 years ago. And I found my own way to successfully deal with them.

And so it was surprising when I got triggered by Chrissy Teigen’s 4th baby news.  I’m deeply in inquiry because I've not been triggered in a while, not even when an IVF sister had her 3rd child recently through IVF, nor when my sister had my beautiful niece, or when I arrived at my sister's house for my nephew's birthday, and found the house overrun by horde of small kids.

In today’s post, I’ll share a prayer that was helpful in dealing with Chrissy’s baby news. And why forgiveness is the key to releasing judgement and living a peaceful and kinder life.

Spirit Babies - Are They For Real?

Spirit Babies - Are They For Real?


If you’re beginning to lose hope.

You’ve tried everything.

You need to believe that you are on the right path.

Read this book - Spirit Babies: How to Communicate with the child you’re meant to have by Walter Makichen.

Read it with an open mind. Drop what you know and be open to discovering new possibilities

Love Every B**** Of You

Love Every B**** Of You

I wrote and rewrote this post so many times (which is why I missed sending my newsletter out last week)

When I first wrote it, I was feeling nice and fuzzy, and then boom, time of the month happened. I was feeling frustrated, angry and sad, tired all within a day, which lasted a good 5 days. 

The title of the blog was originally Love Every Bits of You, and it’s during that angsty period that I "cleverly" changed it to “Love Every B**** of you”. Well, at least I thought it was clever.... but then I wasn't not even sure I can write it out loud... it is a bad word, no? Anyways... I ended up with B*****, but you get what i mean... 

I'm so frustrated at my Bits sometimes, and I know I can't change it... and having to practice Equanimity last week for the 40 days got me present to another experience of being calm which is be in acceptance and surrendering and going with the flow. I'm angry. I complain and I still love every bits of me.

It's like… don't you have complaints about your other half or about your mum or your boss, that you wish you could change, but having done the work, you know you can't? You have to accept them the way they are.

It's like that here, with your bits.

We can't change our "bits" either, but we can change how you respond to them. And change happens moment to moment. You notice your b***** hollering at ya, you holla back (be friendly), you accept them, you love them and you forgive them if you don't feel like it.

Forgiveness is the Greatest Gift You can Give yourself

Forgiveness is the Greatest Gift You can Give yourself

Someone said this to me - “Don’t ask for permission. Ask for forgiveness.”

One thing I’ve learnt about forgiveness in level 3 is that it is the hardest thing to do but it’s be the bravest thing you can do for yourself and most free-ing thing ever.

And you don’t even have to ask for forgiveness from the other person and you can.