It's the question I ask myself when I feel stuck.
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I woke up with a funky throat and a sore belly. I could moan and whine but I got things to do, be there for people , be excited....
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HOW?
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My dance teacher used to tell me not to ‘show your feelings to the students’ because it's their class and I shouldn’t disrupt the class mood just because I’m not feeling good. Because my job is to make them feel good.
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So I have to fake my smile. Fake my attitude. Hide what I am feeling.
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I guess it worked - students happy, boss happy. But this ‘lesson’ stayed with me, so I hide my sadness, my tiredness etc. I say I’m ok when I’m not.
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It’s exhausting- HIDING.
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Then after my Baptiste Level 2 Training, I was forced to come out of hiding and I wanted to. I acknowledged my sadness, my tiredness or whatever I’m feeling at the present moment.
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Which gave me access to be with people authentically and with as much real enthusiasm and vitality because I’m not hiding anymore even if I'm not myself.
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So I showed up in class, with my sexy voice and bloated belly; and I shared what I’m feeling with my students and they understood. They know I’m just like them. A normal human. I gave them the best I can. I gave them ME!!
“Be a Yes to Vulnerability and Authenticity.
Give up hiding. It is exhausting.
Feel what you feel.
Stop saying ok when you don’t feel ok.
Be You!”
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