Mmm… so I wrote this back in Sept 2020, and I was inspired by a sutra study session about Isvara Pranidhana, which is said to be a practice of Surrender. Grateful to Paige Elenson for leading that dharma talk then and to Seth Barron for revisiting it this year. Otherwise this poem would not have seen the light of day. I read it in class this week for the first time, and well, I felt something. It pushed to make the higher call, to share this with you.
Steadiness - putting in effort without strain. In Yoga, it's balanced action or Sukha Stira. In a way to me, it's a kinder version of discipline, where we can create our own space to forgive and get messy and forgive again.
In my meditation practice a few evenings ago, my teacher Baron Baptiste asked us to set a mantra to anchor our attention on.
What came up for me wasn't sexy nor aww inspiring - it was STEADINESS, which was new to me. I wasn't sure of it initially but it was the first thing that popped into my head. And I kept repeating it in my head, and it got stuck.
We all have our things to do daily so that we don’t go insane, things that we don’t want to do but we need to do, right?I've been struggling with doing too much things, because I was afraid of feeling overwhelmed. Because when I feel overwhelmed, I do nada. Zilch!! Unproductive.
That day I gave myself permission to skip my pills, the herbs, my to-dos and the what-nots - and gave myself a break , to restore myself back to love.
I meditated and I journaled and what came up was a long of poem of sorts.. It is what it is, the chatters of my monkey mind.
